it's a bit unbelievable - things can happen all of a sudden. happiness was like a cloud that disappeared after the rain. a point of view of someone in an very strange outlandish place of thoughts - uncertain but true to the core.. . . .

i thought it will be true this time. after the countless chances i given you, here we are again heading for utopia but swayed willingly and detoured in oblivion.. . .

i never thought you will be so materialistic. how can it happen even without me? this is the time when i need you most. but you keep yourself so away, abandoned the plan. you choose to forget me. you are no good but for the happy times and the good life. you forgot that this time is a part of the realities of this life.. . .

i should have not believe you in the first place. i thought you belong to me.. . to us. but time tells us something, it want me to head for it. catch it like gold floating towards the sun.. . . .

if you do not want me anymore, it is alright. i will not die. i am still breathing. they still see me here so free. they still talk and wants something from me. if i am so obsolete to you and yousif, at least i am from people like you.. . . i never lost anything because you are nothing after all.. . . .